A Tumbleweed’s Life
Blows Blowing BlownFrom here to thereand on again Thoughts I controlDestination belongs to the...
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Category: Healing Journal
Grief Morphs and Changes
To my surprise, both my wife and I reacted unexpectedly this past Saturday when we dropped off...
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A Lake Kahola Memory of Emma
Emma only got to visit Lake Kahola a few times. We didn’t move in until the last weekend of...
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I’ve Been on Pause ||
NOTE: This is me processing grief. This is not inspirational. This is the grief I feel. It is...
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Merry Christmas Emma
Merry Christmas, Emma. You are missed. You are loved.Merry Christmas, Emma. You still amaze...
Read MoreOur Loved Ones Live on Through Us
Life is energy. Energy is life. Perhaps this is how our loved ones live on through us. I am a believer in the Holy Trinity. And what about our souls? Are our souls energy? This post isn’t to go deep in to the theology...
Read MoreThe Choice To Be Grateful
Each day I make the choice to be grateful. Easy? No. Necessary? Yes. Our youth pastor of our church gave the message last Sunday. And as this twenty-four year old man stood there and spoke from his life experiences every bone...
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Sleepless Nights: A Child Worth Fighting For
I never fully realized that the Day I Met Emma there would be so many sleepless nights to follow...
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Happy Birthday, Emma
Today should be Emma’s twenty-first birthday. Oh boy, did she have plans! She was finally...
Read MoreFrom Tears to a Smile
Last week I stopped by Sweet Tee’s Coffee shop in Olathe and when I came back out to start the car the song that was on my Sirrius/XM radio was “Teach me how to Dougie.” And that is when I realized that my...
Read MoreAm I a Father of Four of 3/4 of a Father?
Today is Father’s Day, 2018. Of all the things that raced through my head, and continue to echo, in the days following the death of my daughter, Emma Lengquist, was/is “How do I answer the question of how many kids...
Read MoreWhy Do I Visit Her Grave?
I lost my mother in February of 2013. I was fortunate enough to be by her side when she drew her last breath. And I like to visit her grave on or about her birthday each year. I don’t really know why I chose that day....
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